There's a somewhat complicated question. I know why, obviously, since I do it, and if there's one thing I'm not, it's unclear of my motivations on any point. I'm pretty aware of my own thought processes, sort of by necessity. Chosen necessity, really. I don't have to keep an eye on them, monitor my own memories, but I want to be distinct. To be me.

"That's- it's a thing. It's kind of a whole thing," I say. "Do you want the speech? It's not a lecture, it's just- an explanation of how it's a thing. Of my reasoning, there."